Fall is Near

 Welcome to my blog! Over the years I have been encouraged to share my writings in different formats, so this is my first attempt at doing that. First, a little background. After 25 years of a “perfect  for us” marriage, I lost my husband to Glioblastoma last October. It was fast and furious and ugly, but it was sweet and empowering and a gift. I have learned a lot about myself and my family and friends and my relationship with God…and my husband. He is the gift that keeps on giving even though he’s not here, so hence the title of my blog. My first entry is Fall is Near. I can look at the calendar, and I know that. I can look outside at  my patio at the leaves that are falling, and I know that. I can look at the two week forecast on my weather app, and I know that. I can feel the dread in my heart as this one year anniversary approaches, and I know that. I can feel “the fall.”  Autumn has always been my favorite season, and I am being very intentional with my attitude as I near October 19. My fellow widow friends have assured me that the anticipation is worse than the actual day, and I hope that proves true for me. I have always been in awe of God‘s beauty, especially this time of year. I have always appreciated His handiwork all around us this time of year. I have always felt peaceful this time of year. I don’t want to lose the sense of wonder at this beautiful life I’ve been blessed with, so I push through each day. I will stop and smell the roses…or pumpkin candles in this case…and remember that life doesn’t have to be perfect to be good. Blessings to you all. ❤️